I can't BELIEVE HOW LONG it HAS BEEN

Sorry for the lack of blogging on here. There has been so much going on that I don't know where to start. In the past 2 years we have moved to Tarkio. In this really nice apartment. For the most part we love it. There were a couple of incidents that happened that we didn't like, but those are mostly over, and my Baby is healing from one of them. I quit working at Casey's right before we moved into the apartment, but in November of the same year, I begged and got my job back. I worked at the Nursing Home here in Tarkio for a couple of months, I worked in the laundry and housekeeping. I really liked it, but they didn't give me enough hours, so I begged and got my full-time job back at Casey's and since then have been promoted to 2nd assistant. Which isn't too much more than I was doing before, but I got a raise and I get every other weekend off now. WHOOOHOOO!!!! Like that idea. A couple of days I work midnight to 8 a.m., which totally sucks, but as my Baby's aunt says "someone's gotta do it." So I guess I gotta do it. LOL!!! For right now, there isn't much more to say, just wanted everyone to know that I am still alive and we are doing really well. So have a good night, and remember to hold your Baby really tight.

Our New Visitor

Right now this little rascal is out our window playing in the snow. My Baby went to the door and looked out and this opposum was out front walking toward the house. He scared him to the little shed. After a little while I seen him out the back window and I had to take a picture of it. It was so cool. I thought that I would share it with you.

My son, Bobby, stopped by the other day and he was sharing stories about me before I met My Baby. He was telling about the time that when Trey was little this little litter of puppies were barking up a storm and we went outside to see what was wrong and we looked down on the cement steps and there was a little bat there. I got a pair of gloves and picked it up and took it inside and put it into a birdcage that we had. We called the game warden and they said to put it into the tree out back upside down and it would go away. So after I let the kids look at it I took it outside and did what I was told.

Another time there was this HUGE black snake climbing the courthouse wall and I had ahold of it and was going to take it down to the creek and let it go. Bobby started honking the horn and it made the snake really mad. So I had to let it go on its way. When Trey, my Baby, and I was walking in the field just south of the house. My Baby was rabbiting hunting and there was this little snake slithering along. I picked it up, Trey thought it was really cool. So did I.

I have always been that way with wild animals. When I was little I actually caught a kit hawk that was hurt. We called the lady down the road, she worked at the refuge, it ended up dying, but I saved it for the night. I also saved a little pig one time when her momma squished her. Dad was climbing the grain bin, before he went up, I was crying and trying to get it alive. Daddy showed me how to kinda do cpr on it. I massaged its side and by the time daddy came back down the little pig was up and running around in the back of the truck. He couldn't believe it. Neither could I, honestly.

But, anyway, I am done "chasing rabbits" with all these stories and I am sure boring the poop out of you. I will let you go. Have a great night and maybe real soon- before the end of the year- I will tell you about our Christmas. Take care of yourself and all the little critters that you may have. Good night, Roxi

A BEAUTIFUL CHRISTMAS POEM

A Different Christmas POEM

The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light,
I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight.
My wife was asleep, her head on my chest,
My daughter beside me, angelic in rest.
Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white,
Transforming the yard to a winter delight.


The sparkling lights in the tree I believe,
Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve.
My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep,
Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep.
In perfect contentment, or so it would seem,
So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream.

The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near,
But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear..
Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know,
Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow.
My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear,
And I crept to the door just to see who was near.

Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night,
A lone figure stood, his face weary and tight.
A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old,
Perhaps a Marine, huddled here in the cold.
Alone in the dark, he looked up and smiled,
Standing watch over me, and my wife and my child.

"What are you doing?"I asked without fear,
"Come in this moment, it's freezing out here!
Put down your pack, brush the snow from your sleeve,
You should be at home on a cold Christmas Eve!"
For barely a moment I saw his eyes shift,
Away from the cold and the snow blown in drifts..

To the window that danced with a warm fire's light
Then he sighed and he said "Its really all right,
I'm out here by choice. I'm here every night."
"It's my duty to stand at the front of the line,
That separates you from the darkest of times.

No one had to ask or beg or implore me,
I'm proud to stand here like my fathers before me.
My Gramps died at 'Pearl on a day in December,"
Then he sighed, "That's a Christmas 'Gram always remembers." My dad stood his watch in the jungles of 'Nam',
And now it is my turn and so, here I am.

I've not seen my own son in more than a while,
But my wife sends me pictures, he's sure got her smile.
Then he bent and he carefully pulled from his bag,
The red, white, and blue... an American flag.
I can live through the cold and the being alone,
Away from my family, my house and my home.

I can stand at my post through the rain and the sleet,
I can sleep in a foxhole with little to eat.
I can carry the weight of killing another,
Or lay down my life with my sister and brother..
Who stand at the front against any and all,
To ensure for all time that this flag will not fall.."

" So go back inside," he said, "harbor no fright,
Your family is waiting and I'll be all right."
"But isn't there something I can do, at the least,
"Give you money," I asked, "or prepare you a feast?
It seems all too little for all that you've done,
For being away from your wife and your son."

Then his eye welled a tear that held no regret,
"Just tell us you love us, and never forget.
To fight for our rights back at home while we're gone,
To stand your own watch, no matter how long.
For when we come home, either standing or dead,
To know you remember we fought and we bled.
Is payment enough, and with that we will trust,
That we mattered to you as you mattered to us.


Christmas will be coming soon and some credit is due to our U.S service men and women for our being able to celebrate these festivities. Let's try in this small way to pay a tiny bit of what we owe. Make people stop and think of our heroes, living and dead, who sacrificed themselves for us.

My brother sent this to me and I just had to share with all of you. Please thank every soldier for our being aboe to celebrate the birth of Christ Jesus in our own homes. And wish them all a very Merry Christmas and may there be PEACE ON EARTH and GOODWILL TOWARD MEN and WOMEN!!
Thank you and have a great night. Hold your baby real tight. I will post tomorrow about how bad our week was. Talk to you tomorrow, Roxi

GREAT NEWS!!!

I am so EXCITED!!! WOOOHOOOO I know all of you might not be, but we are. The day before yesterday at work, I was talking about my cat and little bear ornaments. This lady, Rhonda who works with me asked me to bring in them for her to see. So I bought them in for her to see and she bought the cat and one of the ornaments. I even have the other Rhonda buying another ornament. I was so excited about it.

And then I have the next two days off. This woman or her man, neither one of us, are going to answer the phone. So don't call. We are out fishing. LOL!! No not really, but he is going to be painting and I am going to be sewing. I can't wait. WHOOOOHOOOOO!!!! I love it.

I can't believe that it is only three weeks until CHRISTMAS!! Oh MY GOSH!! I know one thing- TIME CAN SLOW DOWN!!! PLEASE!! WOW!! I hate it.

Anyway, wanted to share that with you. Have a great night. I know we will, my Baby and I have been planning a really REALLY GREAT NIGHT all day. SO hold your baby tight and have a great night. Roxi

December!!

December has always been VERY hard for me. When I lost my daughter, Sarah Marie, she was buried the day before Christmas Eve. I didn't want her to wait until after Christmas or be buried on Christmas or Christmas Eve. When we got back to our house in Nebraska after burying her, our tree was up and the presents were all under the tree. So for many years my family kept getting on to me for not putting my tree up until Christmas Eve and taking it down Christmas afternoon. It seemed pretty worthless for it be up when the presents were unwrapped. Up until my Baby, I didn't go and get Christmas presents until Christmas Eve. I hated HATED the holiday. Along with Easter- pretty much for the same reason. I lost Allen Scott the day before Easter. Now with my Baby's help we put the tree up right around this time of year and I don't cry as much as I did before. Even today Dear Abby had a poem that I wanted to share with you all. It is a very touching poem, that I know helps me try and get a grip on my kids. They had Spinal Muscular Atrophy (SMA) it was actually called Werdnig-Hoffman Disease. I know that I have talked about them often. I am sorry. I think about them often. Please enjoy the poem.

HEAVEN'S VERY SPECIAL CHILD

A meeting was held quite far from Earth.
It was time again for another birth.
Said the Angels to the Lord above --
"This special child will need much love.
"Her progress may be very slow,
"Accomplishment she may not show.
"And she'll require extra care
"From the folks she meets down there.
"She may not run or laugh or play,
"Her thoughts may seem quite far away.
"So many times she will be labeled
"'different,' 'helpless' and disabled.
"So, let's be careful where she's sent.
"We want her life to be content.
"Please, Lord, find the parents who
"Will do a special job for you.
"They will not realize right away
"The leading role they are asked to play.
"But with this child sent from above
"Comes stronger faith, and richer love.
"And soon they'll know the privilege given
"In caring for their gift from heaven.
"Their precious charge, so meek and mild
"Is heaven's very special child."

Thank you, Baby for helping make some sense out of losing them. I love you with all of my heart. I hope you all have a great night. Hold your Baby real tight and maybe the nightmares will go away. I know they did for me last night. I love you, Baby. Thank you for stopping by and reading the poem.

Update!!

I am so sorry that it has been so long. Happy Halloween!!! Happy Thanksgiving!! We had a pretty good Halloween and Thanksgiving. My Baby and I got to hand out some candy to the little kids for Halloween. It was EXCITING!! I have never done that before. I actually got to give some away at work. I really enjoy the little ones that come in. Thanksgiving was hectic. I had to work and my poor Baby had to make the dinner so we could eat when I got home. It was wonderful to eat when we got home. Elizabeth and Kaley were here with little Gabriel. Who is not so little anymore. He is 2 and a half. Bobby and Trey stopped by for a little while. We got to see my sister after I got off. They stopped at Casey's. I got to talk to her for a minute before we had to come home and they were headed to Maryville.

I had a couple of sales on my Etsy shop. One lady was from Great Britain and the other lady was going to send me a money order, but I never got it. So I relisted the cats that she bought. I am working on some teddy bear ornaments right now. Hopefully, they sell. I don't know for sure though.

Anyway, that is all that is going on here at Hamilton Homestead. I will try and get better at posting. I don't want to talk about Casey's. I just really don't. I spend enough time up there, without talking about it too. Have a great night. I will talk to you soon. Roxi

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT IS OCTOBER!!

Where has the time gone?! Oh my gosh, this is very scary. I can't believe it. There isn't too much to talk about. I had to work today because the lady who usually works on Sundays got hurt a couple of weeks ago. She usually does the truck as well, but this Friday it will be the third week that she doesn't do it. The first Friday I had to unload the truck by myself. It SUCKED!! And LUCKY ME I get to do it this friday if she isn't back yet. I got REALLY hot and then I sat down out in the shade to cool off. WELL, GUESS WHAT? Joyous me, I got the cold that everyone else is getting from this weather. In the mornings it is cold enough for the heater to run and the afternoon it is actually warm enough for the air conditioner. CRAAAZZZZYYYY!!!! I hate this time of year. Then I gave it to my Baby, I am so sorry, honey. I did not want to, but you are so gorgeous and I just have to kiss you. So anyway, that is what is going on at work.

Oh and guess what else?! Since I have had this cold, I have only had two and a half cigarrettes a day. It really is hurting my chest so that is all I have smoked. Actually, today all I have had is 1. Tomorrow will be the real test. I am off tomorrow, so we will see. Hopefully, I can stop. I know that I can quit drinking (cold-turkey) and quit marijuana (cold-turkey) so I am thinking that I can kick this cold-turkey. I sure hope so. Maybe we can save money and use that money on something else. We would have alot. I know that when I am off we go through about 2 packs a day is not two and a half. That is actually alot. We smoke Pall Malls so they are $4.37 a pack with tax. CRAZY!!

I found out today that Trey Daniel is out for Flag Football. He was out on the field playing and I asked Bobby Daren if he was playing. He actually said "yeah." Like I was to know. I told him, "that hey, unless you tell me anything I don't know anything that is going on with them." It drives me crazy the way that I get treated. But hey, that's life. As my Baby tells me. Someone had that as a song or something. He could tell you, but I can't.

Anyway, I wanted to tell you what all is going on here at Hamilton Homestead. I am terrible to not do this all the time. I will try to get better. Most of my time is talking about or working at Casey's. It sucks. I am so sorry, honey, for boring you with my work and then talking about it all the time. I do love you and thank you for doing the laundry. I am sorry that you are feeling bad. I love you. SO anyway, folks, I will talk to you later. Roxi